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The air is feild with yelling and screaming,

I don't know how to make it go away,

I thought trying to talk to the people would help,

we don't talk much so I new it would'nt work at all,

my tying to help was no good at all,

but the yelling and screaming scares me,

in the end I just want to scream to but nothing

comes out of my mouth,

so I just stay there and try and drowned

out the screaming,

Why do these tears keep falling down my face,

confused thoughts go racing in my head all the time,

If love is short and lasts so long i would rather freeze

then die of a broken heart,

I don't know whats wrong with me but I space out so much,

most peopel can't even see the truth even if its in my eyes,

sick of trying to hide how I feel when its screaming in my head,

when I look in the mirror all I see is this lonely person stairing back,

Sweet

Is the word tht describes the person this poem is about,

we talk not tht much but its a sweet special time when we do,

this perosn is great and funny I love talking to them,

there is so much you could say about a special friend like this but sweet says it all,

I got some awsome friends a few great ones but this one goes under special,

I'm not sure what else to say about this person,

only lucky people get a poem or something like this,

im deleting my buzznet account, so go read my shout out and add my yahoo im deleting this account on the 26th or earlier. i dont have a reason 2 stay on here ppl stop talking 2 me. so i have no reason 2 stay i well miss all my friends a few more then others all miss my top 2 ppl  the most u was so fun 2 talk the few times we talked i get ppl r busy but this is something im going 2 do srry ppl.

 

im srry u cant change my mind just add me on yahoo if u dont have tht and u have msn u can tell me all give u tht only if ur going 2 talk 2 me

 

 

What if

What if, what if one day I wake up and im not the same? Will you be my friend any way or well you run like the rest.

What if, what if I do something that you think is wrong? Are you going to tell me that you think its wrong or let me deal with what could happen.

What if, what if one day where talking and I shout and scream at you what well you do? Run away and tell me you hate me or well you hold me and hug saying that its ok all never leave.

What if, what if I start crying and I say im going to give up on everything? What are you going to say fine give up I don't care or well tell me that I can't give up you could do alot in your life.

What if, what if I run away from you? Would u come look for me tell you find me or would leave me not caring what happends.

What if, what if I was in a car reck how would u handle that? Cry because u love me as much as you say or would you say i deseve it.

What if, what if one day I tell you that something is seariously wrong? Would you still love me and stay with me or would you tell me you can't date me any more and leave me.

What if, what if Some drunk guy shoots me and ment to shoot someone else? What would you go and beat him up or would you let it go saying he wasn't meaning to shoot you.

What if, what if when you say I love you I dont say it back. Are you going to question me on it or think to your self she must of not seen I said it I don't need to worry.

What if, what if I tell you that I'm never going to stop loving you? Would you hug me and smile saying I feel the same way or will you laugh and say are you for real and leave it at that.

When I laugh it seems like im just covering so people can't hear me scream on the inside sometimes I think I might be broken and wonder if I can scream so people get that what I want is for people to do things with me sometimes my mind tells me that is what I need not help like I'm getting I cry and get hurt more then I laugh most of the time its hard for me to laugh I mean really laugh and mean it on the inside I know im not alone but I feel alone now more then every when people want to help me now and when I tried to say help it was like I couldn't get myself to say it and now they want to help me its like my mind says its to late for me to get the help I wanted before and now I don't want it but people want to give it I'm confused most of the time I feel as that my mind hurting is something that I'm ment to have and that crying is something my mind feels well help me in ways but it don't just like the people that try

just a poem tht i feel like most of the time

nothing 2 say even if i did it would be like the wind u soemtimes dont hear it i feel like i need 2 be stronger when it comes 2 love or i feel like i well fall and not get back 2 safe ground but latey tht is far away im far from sane but closer 2 insane i cant keep my mind or body in a calm place most of the time or at all its hard but most of all u can try and break me but all u well get back is broken words and mad thoughts in ur face so u cant break me down u can try but i just get stronger with every hit or punch u throw at me i become more raged in side i become more alone with each hit or punch u throw at me so keep trying i feel like the more raged i get the closer i am 2 blowing up and become weak inside and outside so try and break me more and u well break with me soon or later

a little about me

i can be a bitch tht is true but if ur nice 2 me i well do the same if u dont talk then i might get mad but if u get 2 know me u might like me not every1 does tho tht is k ur just jerks (or dicks) what ever sounds better 2 u but i say we need 2 not juge ppl i may be a bi and a freak but im still human k it does hurt when u put me down i wont cry over it in less its tht bad so hey u can call me what ever u want im going 2 be k cuz i know who my friends r and who arent my friends so if ur a friend or want 2 be let me know talk with me send a shot out or what ever u want just let me know im not always a bitch just ask hatemetoday, ryryross, dorkezoid, timetodancechcik, musickaddict some of my good friends on here  they well tell u maybe and there is so much tht u dont know about me tht u could learn about me if u talk with me u can learn them its like i have so many friends on here and some of them dont talk with me im not sure what 2 say about tht in a good way its not tht i dont like have many friends i do its tht some dont talk with me at all if u can tell me why tht would be great and if u dont have the time tell me plz i well understand tht k im not always a bitch

so comment this and tell me what u think k thanks

You and I talk all the time I say I still love you, you say you still love me two but here is the poem thing to say how I feel aobut you for sure.

Your my world your my sun you'll never go away your like dust in the wind your there for me thinking of can't having you makes me cry like rain it comes and goeses when we where togther it felt right to me like monkeys and rope what I mean we had good and bad times you shine to me people go throught me you stick with you I love to cry it feels like it we had a crazy love and wild fun.

comment buzz tell me what u think k

u dont think about it but its there death in the air and its clear and coming 2 tell me u dont need me u got love but im here if u need me i want u 2 come when ur not hurtin cuz love but im there and loving my job but death is in the air midnight all night and day but i want u 2 need me not want me death is in the air and its calling my name and saying im here and waiting 4 u 2 love me not her she loves u but cant help u like i can so join me cuz death is in the air calling my name can u help me say NO 2 the pain and suffering and all the pain i found love and cant let go but cant keep living cuz it hurts but 4 her i well but death is in the air calling my name how do i make it go away its there in midnight all night and day it says just hurt ur self 1 more time and she will be gone but i will love u death is in the air and i feel i cant stop myself 4 the 1 i love i will try and she loves me and i love her but cant be with or see her so how can i stop all the shaking and pain and suffering ppl cant stop the shaking and all the pain its there and death is in the air calling my nam it says come play cuz J- is 4 jackknife and E- is 4 every time and N- is 4 nothing else but pain so help me say NO if u care about me even just a little

 

comment and buzz this if u care just a little and dont want me 2 hurt myself agian  so plz help me say NO 4